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elegant masque
2003-02-06
It all ends
I would use my motorcycle to get around, except winter finally arrived here. I freeze to death getting to the parking lot to the vanpool for my very temporary job of working with the Guard. Yes, I'm still unemployed.
I was so depressed Saturday (when my car initially broke down) that I was downright suicidal. Now I don't know what I'm going to do. I'll just try to hang on until I can leave the country. With war on the horizon, there's a chance I will get shot, so it's not all bad.
Meanwhile, even though I am near suicidal, I am trying to convince someone I care about to not kill herself.
Is that hypocritical?
I am going to the sandbox, and then to war. I am going bankrupt. I am 30 and a bachelor. I made mistakes that my ex-girlfriend interprets as malice.
Well, my life sucks.