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elegant masque
2013-10-17
Listening to country
Not nearly as extreme.
But the central theme is the same, loving one, but not betraying the other. I still love R although I love A more. And I'm not going to do anything to R that would hurt her even though I love A.
First I made a promise. I intend to keep my promises.
Second, A isn't that interested in guys.
Third, even if she was, she isn't interested in married guys.
Fourth, she wouldn't be interested if I was the kind of guy who would hurt R to have A.
So my best chance with A is to be faithful to R. I'm sure the word "irony" fits in here somewhere. I mean, if I'm faithful to R I won't do anything with A, but my best chance with A is to be faithful to R. Sort of a catch-22.
But I force myself to be good to R even though I wish I was holding A. I really do wish it was her even though it isn't. I would give my soul to be with A, except that never works out.